Monday, October 23, 2023
I followed the sun to lay you down:::: to my Mother
a year ago: I didn't go to sleep that night, I stayed up rearranging your room for the hospital bed to come...I got your things ready for your days appointment...In the morning, we talked, joked and mused for the year to come...within minutes we would be holding you, praying, praying, calling for help, doing all we could to revive you....but your angel came unknown to us...you left with such peace and quickness. We still in hope, waiting for you to regain consciousness...how beautifully tragic...it replays...
I followed the sun to lay you down... The rays upon your head-how golden. The tears we cast like waterfalls upon this ground which holds both you and us... will never be parched...
our foundation from beginning...it is steady- yet our heart quakes and wind screams from below our lungs
We are completely pulled apart by muscles, bones...sinews broken, our chambers echo unhidden...our thoughts of the day like a 1000 puzzle pieces waiting to be framed and glued, your words ring in every room
and yet this rich blood from you within us breathing life that percolates...
We are at a lost/loss yet recaptured enamored by memories oh the laughs and pain endure...SHAKE us from this betwixt ...it is too much to bear...rib cages caught between grieving and gasps for air-as the jell-o of laughter jiggles
yet there comes a mildness, a boldness, a fierce... the inheritance...the abundant love...I see you in her soul and I laugh roaring -the directness, the witty, dry humor and discerning... I shake my head...I GAVE BIRTH TO MY MOTHER, ohhh MOMMY, Ja ja ja …
we are Clover Hughie-Scott's daughters...from womb or grander....the umbilical cord is generational and yes Mommy we have a tie … you were right…